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I\’m in the plane now, but a few mins ago I was at the security gate. One and a half hrs before my flight. I was only carrying my purse but I still felt that taking off my coat, scarf, jewelry and boots was enough trouble. \”Take off your belt\” the security man told me. \”Oh no my pants will fall down.\” \”Well you will have to get screened then.\” \”It\’s ok I\’ve got an hour and a half to kill\” I said back.\nThen the lil fucker said to this other worker dude \”well she will have and hour and 15 minutes to wait then.\” And they laughed. I know they were doing their jobs, but they could have been a liiiittle bit more friendly, and not make fun of me.\nI then had to stay in this glass cage… I was there waiting… And no one was coming to screen me for a while.\nThen I saw a lady that had her belt on, she beeped, and she went back through, took her belt off, and then passed w green. I told the meatball dude \”hey, I\’ll just take my belt off too! This is really taking a while!\” Then he goes \”nope. You stay right where you are and wait.\” You ass. She did exactly the same thing I did with the belt, and u let her go back. Why can\’t I go back? Was I really that much of a bitch? Why do you have that this-is-what-you-get face? I really said it in a nice way. These pants really do fall off, I don\’t want my coinslot showing and I had to wake up at 5. I lost my 7am flight and I am so tired. I get security screened aaaaalll the time at LAX and burbank because I beep and it takes 10 seconds. BUT this lil airport in long beach (I\’m taking a quickie flight to san francisco and only will be there for 2 hrs before I fly back) anyway, this airport is soooooo uptight. Which is GREAT, seriously, I don\’t wanna get blown to lil fleshy pieces mid-air, but why did I have to get that mean attitude and get put on time-out… Like a hamster on a glass cage.\nFinally the nice screen lady came and asked me fast questions. I told her I\’ve been screened before. She asked more very fast questions. \”Yes I\’ve been screened many times, even at the White House post 9/11.\”. She actually made me take my belt off. Dammit. Then she started screening me. And it was SCREENING. State of the art screening. I mean, she even made me sit down and scanned my feet. Not kidding. Screw all of those white house, washington dc, and sacramento screeners I\’ve had before. She was THOROUGH. Then she touched my butt and bussoms. She made me show her on the inside of my jeans by the button. I took it as a massage and just relaxed. I was sleepy so I used it as a theurapeutic opportunity. Hmmmmm. While all this was happening – which actually did not take 10 seconds as ush, but 2 to 3 minutes instead – I of course used it as a chance to tell her \”you are really good\” \”like, really. I\’ve never been screened this way before.\” She was so sweet and just laughed and said \”really?\” I told her those guys in dc got nothin on her. And of course, I told her to tell her boss that she is good and that the screeners at LAX are a joke. I confessed I have sneaked in stun guns, knives, and knitting sticks to planes before. I have a Fendi \”spy bag\” handbag and I don\’t know what it is about this bag, but I have flown with all this stuff on accident. I think it just gets lost in there and blends in. Maybe I gave her too much info, but I had an hour to kill plus I like trouble sometimes. (Sometimes). Plus I had all these endorphins.\nAfter putting on all of my clothes… I reached in my purse. Pocket knife, check. Knitting sticks, check.\nI reaaally wanted to look back to those 2 douchebags that were makin fun of me and say really loud \”hey bitchface, look at this! my knife went through and you didn\’t even notice it!\”\n\nThis is totally pointless but I had to let my feelings out. Flight 1438 to san francisco here I come!

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I woke up at 7am, decided it was too cold and early to get up. Then woke up at 8, started reading the news on my phone, then next thing I know I woke up again at 9. I was so cozy in there…\nAte some chocolate covered oreos that were stategically placed near my bed last night. Then I called my agent.\n\”Do you still want me to go to the Schick casting today?\”\n\”Of COURSE I do, danella! Make those legs look like a million dollars and go\”\n\”But I feel a little sick\”\n\”No you don\’t, put on boy shorts, a tank top, and some heels and go, this is a very good booking\”\n\”Ok. I will get this job, no worries\”\n\nI was kinda hoping the casting had gotten cancelled or sth. I\’m not really sick, but it was so cozy in my bed.\nSo even tho it IS sunny in california, it IS officially autumn. The day today is beautiful, actually that picture attached is of the mountain view from my window. Anyway, because it\’s fall I have been rocking boots every day for the last month or so. And my skinny jeans. I hope you realize what that means. Just in case you don\’t know, here: if I don\’t HAVE to, I will not shave my legs.\nAs simple as that. You can\’t really see the hair on my legs. I don\\\’t really have much, but still, if no one is gonna see my legs… Why bother :)\n\nFor the next 20 minutes I will be doing my leg casting routine: shaving them, putting some shea butter, and some powder on my newly found kitty scratches.\nMaybe I will get a rat or two for my boa on my way back home from the casting.\nAlso, my foster kitties are doing wonderfully, and growing stong. Gonna take em to an adoption event in hollywood next weekend :)\n\nTime to go look for my razor… Oh yeah, here is a picture of me lookin not fully awake in the morning haha.

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Hola chic@s!!!

Les escribo apuradisima desde california. estoy en san francisco en un show de pasarela, trabajando como siempre, y no regreso a los angeles hasta noviembre.
les queria hacer saber que saldre en unas cuantas horas en Dia D, canal 9, a las 10pm! :) en Peru!
Estoy super emocionada, y que pena que no lo voy a poder ver desde Los Angeles, pero ustedes si pueden ver el programa, y ver una partesita de mi vida aca en Los Angeles. Ojala no salga como una lorna haha.

aqui hay algunas fotitos de el reportaje. El canal mando a Maribel y Mario a hollywood a hacerme una entrevista a mi y a mi familia :) fue muy lindo!

danella lucioni en hollywood siendo entrevistada para canal 9

danella lucioni en hollywood con su mami

danella lucioni en hollywood siendo entrevistada por maribel para canal 9

Si quieren tomar una foto de la tele con su cel, y subirla aca, se los agradeceria un monton!

Un besote a todos, sepan que extraño un monton a mi Peru. ya les escribo desde mi cellular despues de el fashion show!

besotes!!!!

(short translation haha: TONIGHT! im on tv, in peru, channel 9…. a nice long interview about me and my career, and my wonderful family, especially my beautiful sister. don’t miss it :) 10pm peru time!)

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i am so effing tired, i wish you only knew. i have been sleep deprived for a few days now, maybe even weeks. the last few weeks have been insane, but i have learned sooooo freaken much, you will now know just how much.

well i did get my bachelors 2 years ago. in advertising. i interned at tbwa\chiat\day (top ad agency) afterwards, and i was very scared when i realized the type of life i was going to have with that kind of 9-5. some sort of life i didn’t really want, actually. but i was thrown into “adult life” so had no excuse for a shitty job, i had to work somewhere where i could be a professional….. i felt i had to pick what type of career i wanted, a serious job. i always loved being creative, and business like at the same time, so advertising sounded perfect for me. but after my internship and lots of research i did not want to venture into ad agencies anymore, which was what i thought i wanted while i was in college for all those painstaking semesters. oops.

then out of the blue, i got into the modeling life (talk about “serious job” huh), kinda talked into it by an amazing manager who wanted to represent me. he sort of convinced me to model (me? a college graduate fluent in 4 languages who wants to wear a suit almost everyday, work at a corporation, go to board meetings and wear glasses?) yes, me. when my then-future manager gave me a nice estimate of how much money he guaranteed me because of “that look” that i have (or had) (whatever) because he knew he could book me big jobs, and two of my closest girlfriends adi and silva told me i would be stupid if i didn’t model (and they go to USC), i said fuck it, i’m only young once. maybe i will try modeling for a few months, got nothing to lose.

honestly though, most would think “well, thats what aspiring actors/models TRY to do.. the acting/modeling as a serious job” thing. which sometimes seems to be 99.999% of the population in los angeles, or at least it seems so when you walk into a restaurant full of servers who are actually also actors.

problem is, i really had no idea my modeling career was going to be as serious as it got, and that it would become a real professional career and my only job only after a few days days of starting. two months after i began modeling, i was the main model for the lamborghini campaign, having a photo shoot with paris hilton, and walking the catwalk for betsey johnson and nanette lepore. i guess my manager was much better than i thought.
i was very happy i took the risk, and very lucky things went how they did. i was officially a professional model, my own boss in a way, and it was also my only job and only source of income. quite wonderful actually.
but i wasn’t satisfied. i had the need to do more professionally rewarding things. in my urge to make myself feel that i still had neurons [when people ask you "what do you do?" and you say "i'm a runway model", i believe in their perspective your IQ is automatically down by at least 20%] so yes, i enrolled at a french class in order to keep learning, which i am obsessed with. BUT then the teacher would get mad whenever i HAD to miss a project because i was shooting a national commercial for mercedes benz, or when i would have a photo shoot for BCBG and i HAD to leave early so i can get my legs waxed. he told me he would drop me out of the class if i kept missing days. and he did. i never liked french that much anyway.

what else can i do with my EXTREMELY UNPREDICTABLE AND IRREGULAR modeling schedule???? definitely something that does not have a set time. knit? paint? i can only do that so much.
what do i love? animals. i’m obsessed with animals. ok, i will try to save them. how about fostering? yes.
next thing i knew, i had 11 kittens in my house and i so founded athena kittens, my non-profit organization. i worked closely with shelters, and established other foster homes, saving literally a few dozens kittens within that year. and to this day i still do. i love them!
but of course that wasn’t enough either.

what did i do? i love clothes. sure. how bout starting my own company? bring it on.
so i put my savings together, the money i was going to buy a house in fall 2009 with, and in early 2009, i started trivelli. got nothing to lose except a shitload of money, right?
in one sentence, trivelli is clothing for women in their late 30’s through their 50’s, or even 60’s, with designs that i or girls my age would wear (well, most), but with a fit that is flattering to their bodies. most designers my age are designing for girls their age, so it IS very challenging to do this, but it is an incredible market with great opportunities as well.
most importantly, without the guidance of my parents i would be completely lost in my still relatively new business. my dad helps me with anything legal/paperwork/finance, the kind of things i can’t risk effing up. my mom is amazing emotional support and when i get design brain farts, there she is to tell me the print i picked is terrible and she saves the day.

i have my own office in pasadena, conveniently located across the street from in-n-out…. which was cool at the beginning but now not so much. i can only have so many chocolate shakes. and the fries aren’t salty enough.
i am now working on spring/summer 2010, and this collection i will show in las vegas, the biggest fashion convention in the US. soon you shall see what i have up my sleeve. i am extremely excited and extremely nervous at the same time. it’s like my boa, i love him cause he was still kinda little but now that he’s growing i’m scared he’s going to eat me.

before this craziness, i had met the most amazing man in the world, adam. we met at a photo shoot for vogue magazine. in between this craziness, we grew together and i fell in love even more. i didn’t really realize it before until this year, but i seriously am so lucky to have met him, he is truly perfect for me. and we are engaged. that means yes, i am also organizing my wedding.

so here i am, saving kittens, planning my wedding, designing a collection, and of course, sneaking auditions, photo shoots, runway shows, and interviews in between.

i have become EXTREMELY picky when it comes to auditions. if the job doesn’t pay, i don’t take it. if my agency/manager calls me with a booking, i have a minimum amount of money i do it for. and that amount of money i never thought i would set to the amount it is now. i have to, though, because my schedule is so tight. yes i own my own business, but i have 5 employees and plenty of contractors to pay to, so i haven’t taken $1 out of the company – modeling is still my only source of income, but so far so good.

for the last 3 weeks i have been putting this upcoming collection together for the vegas show. i am so lost sometimes because i get asked a million questions i sometimes have no answers to. seamstress: “do you want baby hem or merrow edge?” me: “i don’t know!!!” thank god for the amazing team of people i have, we are working together for this wonderful collection we all put so much effort into. but seriously, i have learned so effing much about fashion and owning a company, i think the equivalent of a 12 unit college semester packed in each month.

i’m struggling to find time to relax and not work, while taking care of three new foster kitties, and my auditions and bookings. but i find time here and there to write, hopefully less next time haha, but this is the big picture of my crazy but entertaining life.

phew that felt good.

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check it out yo.
red carpet is actually fun! here i am in hollywood. check out the video below OR CLICK HERE TO WATCH ME me get blinded by the flash.
on a side note i promise this time around that i will be consistent updating my blog and trying to reply to your emails to the best of my ability <3 but i have been busy with my new clothing company... so yeah :)

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i know its 1 in the morning. but i don’t have to wake up too early tomorrow. the beauty of my job, i’m my own boss. but i guess i gotta encourage and discipline myself.

so yes it has been slow lately workwise, but i have a feeling things are picking back up. i went to 4 castings this week. one on tuesday, 3 on wednesday. i had an offer for a fashion show tonite, they wanted me to do runway, but it was not paid so i politely declined. and went to a concert with my future husband instead haha. he is awesome.
so yeah, i didnt get the jobs for two of those castings for sure. one i have no idea about. the 4th one i think they really liked me, it was for spike tv. it could be an ongoing gig on the show, so i better kiss ass on that one haha. and last but not least, i’m expecting a phone call from the producers of “the amazing race”. the casting director says adam and me are perfect for the show so i’m thrilled :)

oh yeah and i wish my hair were longer. its slowly getting there. oh and if you want to find out why i was covered in ice cream, read more below….

so as always, lots of ish goin on besides my “job” job (modeling). i got a few more foster kitties and they are precious. one is ready for adoption, and two are ready for pre-adoption. they are amazing!!! healthy and fluffy and i wanna squeeze them 24/7. oh and heres a pic of me caged up at amanda’s haha.

oh guess what!!! i have been RUNNING! yep, u heard that right. its present perfect continuous tense. that means i didn’t just attempt to make it a routine like back in feb when i stopped after a couple of times. now it actually is an ongoing feat! i really have been going like 3-4 times a week, for the last couple of weeks. it’s some kind of miracle. i know i’m not fat, but my ass was really starting to jiggle. and summer is coming. or is it here? prevention is better than treatment i guess. so yeah, 3 mile jog/run/walk, with one of my bfff’s (best f*%#ing friend forever) amanda! out of my completely unpredictable life and unpredictable last minute ever changing schedule, this is the only thing that is stable: yoggin at 6:15 mon-thurs, for 3 miles.

really. i have the oddest job of all. i wake up every day not knowing what will happen (well you know what i mean, when i’m not booked for a gig). but i know what will: clean cat poop, and yoggin. my two only chores. and then hopefully making out later if i see adam. hopefully that will be part of the schedule too when we get married and live together :)

oh yeah, i went bungee jumping not once but TWICE on fathers day, which was my bday too! i love my daddy. i will post some pics and the video on a blog later, but in a few words, it was like commiting suicide (the jump) and then being like “just kidding!” (when the rope pulls you back). so dope. more of that story to come.

i also had a few shoots, but on the latest one i was covered with ice cream, pretty much. you should be very excited right now, cause i took some pictures, one is posted above. maybe i’ll save the rest for another post. but hells yes it was cool cause i’m usually all glammed up and pretty and all for the shoots, but for that one i got to shove ice cream all over my face!!!!!! it was for a food series of amazing photographer Angela Marklew!!! <– check “the F word”

me and andy samberg, from SNL, trying hard to be funny and making a weird face haha. in sta monica at a 4th of july celebrity bbq.

the coolest thing too, 4th of july. the ok part: i went to a celebrity pool party bbq thing at a fancy expensive hotel in sta monica but it was kinda lame cause i honestly hate that “getting drunk by the pool” scene, (i dont drink really, it kills my brain cells, so only twice a year or so). but that funny guy adam samberg from SNL was there so that was cool. some actors from the OC and desperate housewives were there too but i had no idea on their names and honestly never watched those shows (i never watch tv…).
to me, the best part was when i went camping later. you must see the pictures when i blog about it, then you will be all like, “yeah, f#%^ck celebrity parties, camping is the SHIT!”. i had waaaay much more fun. here’s a preview!!!!

i have been so terrible lately for not posting haha. i promise on stalins grave that i will make an attempt to write more often. maybe i can add that to my non-previously-existing-but-now-existing schedule: clean kitty poop, blog, yog. yep that’s what i’ll do!!!

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hahaha well, that was one of my answers for a “job” interview today, my response to the question, “tell us something about you that we wouldn’t know”. thing is… i have a different job than most people, so i got away with it haha. my girlfriend adi made me realize that today, when i told my friends about it.
it was an audition/on-camera interview for a new tv show through a major, major tv network. i signed a confidentiality agreement, so once again i can’t talk/blog about it til it airs…. bleh!

it was such crazy day. i was spacing out and drove all the way to burbank on the freeway, missed my exit by a few cities haha. i exited and did a special u turn maneuver, then got pulled over by a cop for “not stopping by a pedestrian”… that i didn’t even see!!! i called bullshit on that. so i got a lovely ticket (pictured above…), AND was 1hr late for my interview.

my agent called me and i was gonna be ready to get yelled at by her for being late but she was in a good mood today. until of course the cd (casting director) gave me this 18 page contract for the tv show, and my agent asked me to fax it to her, but the cd said no and then my agent went 20% bananas. i love it that my agent cares for me so much and watches over my ass. she texted me “DO NOT SIGN ANYTHING PERIOD WITHOUT YOUR AGENT REVIEWING IT!” so they worked something out i guess. yay!

tomorrow i have a casting for a hulu commercial, wonder what they’ll make me do.

its crazy how now i’m getting involved with more contract stuff and its kinda scary. for some reason whenever i sign these contracts they say i cannot run for office for at least a year haha, and random stuff like that. i’m always scared i’m gonna get sued for something.

oh well when my shows air then ill be happy to show you all the pictures and give you the skinny on the behind the scenes drama haha.
for now…. we’ll just wait… aargh :)

PS: adopt a kitten!!!!!

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so this last week was crazy fun and busy. i have been working lots which is good ($!) but also was draining.
i was a model for the “new” project runway show and i cant say much about it (im not allowed!) except it was fun and long. i worked in it two days, sunday and monday. sunday, it was an 8:30am call ugh… then on monday i had no shoot, just did some errands (day off yay!). tuesday call time was 10am, and a 15 hr day!!! we were there til midnight it was sooo draining. its gonna air on october. im in the intro (so you’ll see me in every episode) and in the finale runway show.

last week i had a nail polish party w my gf amanda and we also made muffins. it was so much fun being 14 again. funniest part was i had completely forgotten about them when i went to the shoot sunday morning and then i was like “oh shit i got polka dot glittery nails!”. it was sad when i had to get them repainted to a neutral color :(

overall the days that i wasn’t shooting a full day, looked kinda like yesterday: woke up at 9 to baby kitties on my face, had breakfast, read a book (with kitties on top), got ready, went to casting, came back home, cleaned kitty poop, talked to agent, cleaned more kitty poop, watered plants, played w kitties, adam came over, cooked dinner, played cards.
nothing really too crazy just did a lot of little things.

today its adams bday so i’m actually meeting him for lunch in north hollywood, then going to a casting for bravo’s “shear genious”, for a runway thingy. im NOT getting my hair cut unless its for at least $3,000 haha. im really trying to grow it now!!!! i miss my long hair.

then we’re going to dinner to these guys’ restaurant in west hollywood with a few good friends.
tomorrow we’re going to see adam’s land in big bear (the mountains!) and camping til saturday.

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i was doing taxes (i love procrastinating) when i received a call from the shelter in west valley at noon. today there was a crazy amount of kittens that were brought in, a litter of
5, a litter of 3, a calico, and another litter of 3. i was hustling trying to find more foster homes, since my non-profit could not get all 12.

i was on the phone and email all over the place, because the kittens get euthanized at 4pm if they do not find foster homes – they are too young to be at shelters. successfully we found places for them (ani from animal services did most of the magic too!), our little grassroots connections
worked out thank god.
BUT there were three kittens left. these were from downtown los angeles. it was 2:30pm and i did not want to risk it, so i went and got them!

they were dirty but sooo adorable. they were a little scared, they slept on each other. the ride home was very mellow, it was a sunny and warm day. the pictures here are from the ride.
we stopped by the pet store and i got them turquoise collars and a couple new toys. then they got “home”, and i bathed them one by one, and looked for fleas. they only had one or two fleas (miracle!), and NO ear mites (that is the best thing that could ever happen!!!).
then they slept, ate, played, pooped, and slept some more.

it was crazy to think…. while i was bathing them around 4pm, that if i hadn’t been there for them today, they would be dead instead.

if you would like to help, please let me know. april is kitty season and we need foster moms/dads. sometimes you just need to have them for a couple of weeks until they are old enough for adoption. they get euthanized at shelters if they are not old enough :(

these 3 kitties that i’m fostering will be available in late May, so if you know anyone looking for baby kitties, let me know! email me at info@athenakittens.com

please please please spay and neuter your animals. it is very unfair for them to go through this suffering. there are free spaying/neutering clinics in the country, you have no excuse to help stop animal overpopulation.

visit my non-profit, Athena Kittens, to look at some of the kitties we have saved.

end of the story: looks like i did not finish my taxes on time. but i saved 12 lives. death and taxes…. hmm… more like death OR taxes this time around ;)

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so yesterday i was having a little bit of a mood swing. effin estrogen. i went out to breakfast in north hollywood with adam, and the day was so great, he was so sweet. but then a few hours later i was just tired, and uneasy, and had so many things in my mind… taxes due soon (i have like twenty 1099’s and ten w4’s), having spent $400 on new tires, the new foster kitty, and random small little things like i wanted to bake cupcakes but i had forgotten my easter sprinkles at home (seriously, i was actually a bit upset that i didn’t have my sprinkles. what a little drama queen haha).

i had an audition but did not feel like going at all, so i didn’t. i kept making excuses to not go. it was for a music video, i was gonna come out on a bikini, and it only paid $500. it wasn’t my type of work anyway, so i was actually not bummed with myself that i did not go because i don’t want to do a job just for the money.
it’s hard sometimes to have to push yourself to do some things. my manager sent me out on a great casting for a hair salon in beverly hills two days ago, and i had so much energy i was like “hell yeah!”. it’s just all so random. like when you have a regular job and some days you enjoy going to work, and others you dread it…. it’s the same with me and my modeling career but in a different environment and schedule.

i was remembering i wanted to quit modeling not long ago. it was actually in mid march, about a month ago. work was not as frequent as i wanted for some time and one day i just felt very unmotivated. i had sprained my ankle the week of LA fashion week auditions early march. i thought maybe my time modeling was over and i should go back into the “business” side of me and put my college degree back to use.
i punched myself in the face, told myself i wasn’t gonna get into a self-pitty cycle. i just held on for a couple of days, pushed myself through, called my agencies and manager and soon enough a few days later i started getting more work. that week alone i had a fitting for a shoot for j. corsentino’s Time of The Faeries on thursday, my agency direct booked me for a shoot for the opening sequence of a new tv show on bravo on friday, i booked and shot a co-lead role in music video for band Go West Young Man and shot it saturday and sunday, and then did an interview for bridal tv show on WE on tuesday.

crazy model life. when it rains, it pours… all when you least expect it.

don’t ever, ever give up. don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something. the only person who can tell you you can’t do it is yourself.
always take ur chances. you don’t lose anything by trying.
chances of you being found are low. what r u waiting for? go get whatever it is you have always wanted, NOW. turn criticism into something positive. don’t stop at the no’s – take them as lessons. and keep trying. and always stay positive.

i don’t believe in “things happen for a reason”. to me, they simply happen.
shit happens, period. just make the best of it.

put on your best face during the low times because when you least expect it…. the high tides have come.
now go get on your ass and do whatever it is you have always wanted to do!!!

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ugh i’ve spent a whole week feeling like shit. i have been with the flu for days now and it’s disabling me to function properly. i slept in 4 days in a row, stayed home the whole time, and was so glad i did not have any direct bookings. i don’t like taking medicine at all, so my weapon is sleep! i slept 15 hours last night. sounds cool, but wasn’t cool when i woke up at 2am, was not sleepy anymore and was like wtf what do i do now. so i started thinking of the new design of my webpage, and somehow managed to start working on it then. my publicist said it would be a perfect time to brainstorm for my “branding” since i’m laying in bed for so long. thing is, all i wanna do is curl up and nap!

i’m drinking flaxseed tea that my daddy made me for my cold. how cute is that. he’s so sweet. i never drink enough liquids and so he said “i have this special recipe for tea!”. it’s funny tasting but seems to be making my throat feel better.
my momma left me a glass of orange juice on my desk this morning, [Read more →]

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so today i got a call from my agency. “are you free right now because we need you to go down to santa monica for a photo shoot, for a magazine editorial!” my response: “um…. maybe… how much does it pay?” (but in my mind, “shit!!! why today of all days!!!”)

i came to downtown los angeles today, and decided to carpool. my first time carpooling this year. and last. i swear.i am all about saving gas and the environment, don’t get me wrong, but my modeling career and how last minute it is, really leaves me no choice. i need to be available if i want to book more jobs. i had no time to go home, get my car, and drive down to santa monica; so i told my agent “no…. i can’t do the photo shoot!!!” :(

everything came down on me today. i was going crazy because today i happened to book a lot of stuff, most of which does not have exact dates.
my agent informed me of an audition tomorrow, for a motion picture i can’t disclose apparently (starring bruce willis). [Read more →]

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ok so periodically, well, every week, i measure and weigh myself. i haven’t gained or lost weight in years – but i don’t control it, i just happen to have a high metabolism and i stay at 120 lbs (give or take) in spite of eating like i eat (a lot).

so, i recently was featured in the homepage of askmen.com with a photo gallery, and collegehumor.com wrote a short article on me about those pictures:

i admit it was flattering and made me blush a little, and it was funny too (the “missing i” part was so cool). i had no idea that the website wrote that, in fact, if it wasn’t for some of my friends telling me they saw me in the collegehumor.com homepage, i wouldn’t have known.
later i was able to read the comments by the users. the comments however, kinda shocked me. i did see some funny ones like “hot damn”, “me likey pie”, etc. but what actually made me feel a little uneasy was this:

“hmmm…maybe a bit too skinny”

“Yeah some (like #2) she looks like a concentration camp survivor. Others (4&5) she looks like a healthy, big-boobed hotty.”

(pics #2, 4, and 5 that the poster commented about)

i am used of casting directors, agents, photographers, managers, bookers, and even clients telling me my “faults”, because it is very eye-opening and i always appreciate constructive criticism. and i take it very well. after all, without realizing your “not perfect” aspects and improving them, no one can get ahead of their career, any career.

but to see what people not in the entertainment industry think of me in an unbiased way is very different than what i’m used to. those guys (or girls?) probably did not think i was going to read their comments, which is cool. i actually appreciate those comments because it makes me realize some things that i did not see – that some people think i am too skinny?

but i really feel otherwise.

i mean, “concentration camp survivor”? wtf i swear. i’m not that skinny. i just ate beans and rice (so good). every day i eat probably about 20% more than the average “healthy” person, and i stay the same. i mean everyone always tells me to not eat that many pastries and ice cream cause i will get sick. and you’re thinking, “well what you eat is not the problem, the problem is that you look too skinny”. but what the fuck do i do? hit the gym and grow some muscles? when i was in the track team in college i run a lot, worked out a lot, 6 days a week, and still, 120 fucking pounds. i was very very toned, and my legs still are very muscular i think from that, but here’s a news-flash: there’s no more room, and unless i eat 5,000 calories a day, which i won’t cause i dont wanna get type 2 diabetes, i will still weigh 120.

screw you, metabolism. actually, never mind… thank you, for not assimilating food as easily. and for those of you who tell me i’m skinny, well i’m sorry but just deal with what i can’t and won’t change about me. trust me, i do eat. i love to eat. but just like there are short and not-short people, there are skinny and not-skinny people. metabolisms. i need sugar to function. it’s genetics, and we gotta deal with it by accepting and embracing who we are instead of thinking of our faults. don’t change the way you look for someone else. don’t try to please everybody or else you’ll go crazy.

if we focus on the positive aspects within ourselves, it’s all that really matters. beauty consists of a small part of what you look like, and a big part of how you feel like. beauty reflects in your personality, through your eyes, and believe it or not, the confidence that seeps through your body language. the happier and more comfortable you become with your body, the better you feel. learn to listen to it. beauty is in the attitude and how YOU want others to see you.

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News reports from Iraq and disturbing video footage showing government veterinarians and other officials shooting and poisoning puppies and dogs in Baghdad (for “control” purposes).
It’s horrible to know that humans are able to do such malice to another being.

See the video, and find out how Iraq deals with dogs… :( (please do watch)

Read this article for more info: www.cnn.com/2009/WORLD

Please help these defenseless dogs and do something about it, sign this petition, it should only take a second!!
getactive.peta.org/campaign/iraq_dogs?c=pmsbw08

And please pass this along! Post it on your facebook and myspace bulletin!!! Those dead puppies did not do anything to deserve such horrible deaths. There are so many other ways to humanely control dog population.

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awesomness. so while i was down in peru i was interviewed by COSAS magazine, this very cool magazine that is distributed everywhere in peru and has fashion and social scene articles.

it was all very exciting and for days wondered what they were gonna make of the interview.
it came out very wonderful, i was so freaken excited :) you can check out and read them in my flickr by clicking here.

if you’re in south america, go get a copy! its still on the shelves for another week. that magazine is everywhere, too. also, once i get it in the mail i will post the scans ;)

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